Ready or Not

I had a talk with one of my bro's Bigtuck.com (yes I'm going to refer to him in this post the same way I do in real life) the other day about women and how we always end up liking girls that we know are bad for us.  He said one thing to me that I'll probably never forget.  "You can't help who you're attracted to, you can't help who you like, but when you truly mature you'll be able to sacrifice what you want for what you need."  The crazy thing about this statement is its 100% true.  Whether you're a male or a female, most of us can relate to the fact that we tend to show extra attention to those we really don't need in our lives. For some strange reason those we desire, tend to have less desirable traits that we don't take heed of until it's possibly too late. I can tell you straight up I give more attention to a girl I have no business giving a minute too, then a girl I need in my life and honestly I haven't matured to the point where I can make that switch for good yet. Since I'm speaking on the subject I might as well be honest, but let me get to the meat and potatoes.  A mature person looks out for what brings them the most happiness, they look for longevity in their relationships and in order to achieve total happiness and longevity with a person, they must have qualities that enhance your being.  Wanting someone only fulfills certain needs, they might seem good for the moment, but in the long run it could bring you more strain.  When you need someone, you're open to correct some of your flaws, while they take the time to embrace your flaws. That person ultimately makes you better.  Everyone has room to grow and become more complete, the real question is at what stage of your life are you ready to sacrifice?


Currently Jamming:  Turn it up x Rack$et

Stay Scheming?

I've learned that most everybody schemes.  Scheming is a pure defense mechanism, so let me break it down to you.  Scheming is the act of finding a way to get over on somebody without causing yourself any repercussions or emotional harm.  The act of scheming causes one to act without the regards of the other parties feelings.  Usually the act of scheming results in a slight gain for the schemer, followed by a visit from somebody, called Karma. We live in a society that's dog eat dog and rather cutthroat. There's just no way around it and honestly I really don't blame people for scheming; people must protect themselves right? I wrestle with this because in essence I wouldn't want my feelings to be played with, but to get what you want you may sometime have to play with somebody else's feelings, that's just real life.  Scheming isn't always negative though. You can scheme without hurting someone else, but those who use the mechanism for negative purposes on a consistent basis are those who have been hurt many times over.  This means that scheming really can be a counter act to deflect mental pain, hence the thoughts why hurt alone? Scheming allows one to think ahead and attack a person's mind without the other person seeing it coming, this is a mental game that plays on what every person has....Emotions.   Most people are afraid of their emotions and I don't blame them, emotions are a relatively scary thing, so we shield ourselves from allowing people to see we have them, and in turn some of us choose to take advantage of others emotions.  I can't give advice on this topic, and honestly I have no proper answer on how to avoid scheming because in essence there is no right answer.  However, I can leave you with this, feel out your situation and act as a good judge of character it may save you.

Currently Jamming:  Gucci Mane ft Jim Jones x Kansas

Crazy Women I choose them

All women are crazy.  I'm playing, but a lot of ya'll are forreal and I don't know what it is about the craziness in women that I love, but on everything I love, I got a thing for crazy women.  I mean I look at myself in the mirror everyday, and honestly I think I'm crazy: the things that go on in my mind, my thought process, my whole persona I wouldn't deem normal, and I can't help it I really love it.  But enough about me. Crazy women are interesting, their mind thinks on a different page, that page is beautiful.  You're craziness may be a result of damage caused by the dudes in the past, or circumstances you've been through, or you just may be crazy, but real talk, I'ma embrace it, and I wouldn't change you. Your craziness is sexy and the fact that you embrace it enough to let it out is intriguing.  I think a lot of women are crazy because they wanna know and be reminded that a dude cares, so they'll take you the extra mile just to find out how much you can endure. A lot of dudes say they don't like crazy women and it's because a crazy woman will keep you on your toes, a crazy woman will stimulate your mind because in order for a crazy woman to flourish, you must allow her to be herself and you must find a way to help her manage that crazy.  9 times out of 10, if I have the option of who I'm going to invest my time in, I'll invest my time in the crazy woman more so than the normal/simplistic woman. The reason why is simple, I don't really mess with that horoscope stuff to seriously but as an Aries I love challenges.   It may not be the healthiest decision, but lord knows you can't help what your attracted to, I get it from my father honestly.  All I gotta say to end this is be you mama, if it ain't killing anybody don't change for anybody, Be Crazy.

Vulnerability

I'm terrified of being vulnerable. Vulnerability is a key feeling, because in order for you to open up and start something new with somebody you must allow your guard to come down and sacrifice your vulnerability. I tend to bury things that bother me into a box that only few people have the key to.  Not even all of my closest friends have the key to it, and it may have an affect on certain relationships but its the way I'd rather keep things.  I hate being hurt and I'm sure everybody does but coming from a personal standpoint I'd rather bury the things that bother me and ignore them. Everybody has a past, and everybody has things in their past they may not be proud of but honestly instead of giving another person a key to reopen my box, I'd rather talk about the future. In Robby's mind today and tomorrow are the only things that matter. The past opens up issues that only I can correct, I can't look back and sit on them, because I feel to do so would be to regress.  In all honesty, I'm really unsure if this is the right way to think but it works for me, and even though this may seem unhealthy I prefer to keep it this way.  Maybe it's my pride factor. In essence I could care less what people really think about me but at the same time, I don't want a distorted image of myself that my past may project.  I'm happy with life and I've put myself in position to continue my personal happiness, there's just one thing missing......


Currently Jamming: Kendrick Lamar x Wanna be Heard

If It Helps

Dealing with my recent struggles I feel like I'm at a crossroads with myself. Throughout my life I've been my own worst enemy, I'm not ashamed to admit it, I'ma realist.  There's only one person that can derail me from my dreams and that's myself, and in some ways I've done a good job at slowing down my path to success.  Through recent soul searching I've realized I really have two options; Turn up and grind through these hardships because there's a light at the end of the tunnel or let all that's bothering me slow me down.  Life is hard man, real talk it can seem like a constant struggle, and I know I'm not the only one who feels that.  But word is bond this life is a blessing, keeping faith in whatever you choose to believe in is important to weathering the storm of lows life throws at you. I'm not the most religious person in the world, but I truly believe that a higher power has something special planned for me, and that all my struggles are a test that I either choose to prepare for to overcome or fail. This life really is about choices, because each decision you make has a impact on your life and no choice is bigger than the other in terms of getting to where you want to be. I'ma cut it short and end it with this, because at the moment I feel like I can go on forever.  Don't let your struggles deter you from you're hustle and keep fighting, no matter what keep fighting.

Currently Jamming:  Jose Guapo-Burn Slow