Crazy Women I choose them

All women are crazy.  I'm playing, but a lot of ya'll are forreal and I don't know what it is about the craziness in women that I love, but on everything I love, I got a thing for crazy women.  I mean I look at myself in the mirror everyday, and honestly I think I'm crazy: the things that go on in my mind, my thought process, my whole persona I wouldn't deem normal, and I can't help it I really love it.  But enough about me. Crazy women are interesting, their mind thinks on a different page, that page is beautiful.  You're craziness may be a result of damage caused by the dudes in the past, or circumstances you've been through, or you just may be crazy, but real talk, I'ma embrace it, and I wouldn't change you. Your craziness is sexy and the fact that you embrace it enough to let it out is intriguing.  I think a lot of women are crazy because they wanna know and be reminded that a dude cares, so they'll take you the extra mile just to find out how much you can endure. A lot of dudes say they don't like crazy women and it's because a crazy woman will keep you on your toes, a crazy woman will stimulate your mind because in order for a crazy woman to flourish, you must allow her to be herself and you must find a way to help her manage that crazy.  9 times out of 10, if I have the option of who I'm going to invest my time in, I'll invest my time in the crazy woman more so than the normal/simplistic woman. The reason why is simple, I don't really mess with that horoscope stuff to seriously but as an Aries I love challenges.   It may not be the healthiest decision, but lord knows you can't help what your attracted to, I get it from my father honestly.  All I gotta say to end this is be you mama, if it ain't killing anybody don't change for anybody, Be Crazy.

Vulnerability

I'm terrified of being vulnerable. Vulnerability is a key feeling, because in order for you to open up and start something new with somebody you must allow your guard to come down and sacrifice your vulnerability. I tend to bury things that bother me into a box that only few people have the key to.  Not even all of my closest friends have the key to it, and it may have an affect on certain relationships but its the way I'd rather keep things.  I hate being hurt and I'm sure everybody does but coming from a personal standpoint I'd rather bury the things that bother me and ignore them. Everybody has a past, and everybody has things in their past they may not be proud of but honestly instead of giving another person a key to reopen my box, I'd rather talk about the future. In Robby's mind today and tomorrow are the only things that matter. The past opens up issues that only I can correct, I can't look back and sit on them, because I feel to do so would be to regress.  In all honesty, I'm really unsure if this is the right way to think but it works for me, and even though this may seem unhealthy I prefer to keep it this way.  Maybe it's my pride factor. In essence I could care less what people really think about me but at the same time, I don't want a distorted image of myself that my past may project.  I'm happy with life and I've put myself in position to continue my personal happiness, there's just one thing missing......


Currently Jamming: Kendrick Lamar x Wanna be Heard

If It Helps

Dealing with my recent struggles I feel like I'm at a crossroads with myself. Throughout my life I've been my own worst enemy, I'm not ashamed to admit it, I'ma realist.  There's only one person that can derail me from my dreams and that's myself, and in some ways I've done a good job at slowing down my path to success.  Through recent soul searching I've realized I really have two options; Turn up and grind through these hardships because there's a light at the end of the tunnel or let all that's bothering me slow me down.  Life is hard man, real talk it can seem like a constant struggle, and I know I'm not the only one who feels that.  But word is bond this life is a blessing, keeping faith in whatever you choose to believe in is important to weathering the storm of lows life throws at you. I'm not the most religious person in the world, but I truly believe that a higher power has something special planned for me, and that all my struggles are a test that I either choose to prepare for to overcome or fail. This life really is about choices, because each decision you make has a impact on your life and no choice is bigger than the other in terms of getting to where you want to be. I'ma cut it short and end it with this, because at the moment I feel like I can go on forever.  Don't let your struggles deter you from you're hustle and keep fighting, no matter what keep fighting.

Currently Jamming:  Jose Guapo-Burn Slow

Wisdom for Readers

I wanted to update really quick because it's been awhile since I have.  I've got a lot of new things in the making, so be on the lookout for moves coming in the summer. You better believe I'll be on top of my game, FFB eating season is in full effect.  I really just wanted to post to remind my readers that every day you make choices and in the process of decision making you must accept and live with the consequences of your decisions.  Life is too short to complain and worry about past transgressions. One must understand that God only puts you through what he feels you can handle, so letting a situation affect you only brings you unwarranted stress. Pain is not exclusive, you must realize that we all go through things, the most important thing is how you attack personal issues, will you cower down or will you boss up and continue to handle business; the importance of that is key.  Lastly, I want to leave you with this life is precious every day you are allowed to wake up walk, talk, eat, see etc. is a gift, tomorrow is never promised,  so while you're here make an impact.

Currently Jamming: Chief Keef-3hunna

Effort=Results

Pops always told me, "You only get out of life, what you put into it."  I never understood the meaning of this, but I feel as if now I can explain it, so here I go. If you want something physically, socially, financially, mentally etc. you have to strive for it.  There is no half way, no 50%, hell there's not even a 75%, if it’s truly important to you 110% has to go into it.  We find ourselves making excuses for why things are the way they are, why we haven't gotten something yet, why we see others doing things we want to do and I know, personally I've been guilty of entitlement syndrome and instead of going out and getting I've watched others do and wondered, why not me! Honestly, you’re only entitled to two things, the ability to live and the ability to create your own destiny. If you want something you have to put in the effort to achieve, if you want change you have to get out of your comfort zone and seek such.  Put your all into this thing we call life, you only get one, and regrets are for losers. Enjoy life and reach your personal level of success, you define you.  I'll leave you with this don't wonder why, go get! 

Currently Jamming:  John Mayer-Daughters 

You Love You

Love you!! You're the only one that controls your happiness.  No one can ever tell you your worth, or who you are because only you can define that.  To love thyself does not mean to be arrogant or cocky, but to understand your value and be confident in the image that you've been blessed with.  God created us in our own perfect way, in which even our imperfections are beautiful.  One must understand there will always be rainy days, because in order for the grass to grow their must be rain.  This meaning in order for us to grow as individuals we may have to endure some type of struggle. Do not let your struggle define you!!, allow it to be a part of you, but do not let it define your sense of being and no matter what struggles we go through we must understand that God doesn't put us through anything we can't handle.  It is imperative that we understand, even at our lowest point we are still beautiful.  This may seem a little sappy, but honestly we were all created beautiful in one way or the other.  There's a cliché saying that goes "beauty is in the eye of the beholder", and being the person in charge of your happiness you must understand no matter the weather you still shine.  

Currently Jamming:  Drake-Where to Now

Rest in Peace Shane

I needed somewhere to write so I'ma write you on here.  I know you wouldn't want me to cry but I can't help it bro I really can't the fact your no longer here and we can't even share a laugh anymore kills me.  You had an impact on everybody you met that will last forever, and you were and always will be my brother.  You and Sam used to call me Uncle Rob because we used to joke if you ever had a kid I would be the uncle because we were brothers.  In the short time that we became close I swear we had a friendship that people don't even have and they've known each other their whole lives.  You will always be my family bro and I remember you telling me, how you were gonna be doing big things on Wall Street and I was gonna be doing my thing and we would still be close still share memories.  Even though that will never happen your memory will live on through me I'ma make sure I make it for you cuz if one of us makes it we all do that's just how family is.  I know your at peace now though kicking it with Mama Madeline and God reunited in heaven.  The dream won't stop bro I swear I got us I love you fam forever and a day Rest in Paradise Shane McCullough a true friend and brother to the end

Love,
Uncle Rob